something she should know....

Drifting back to a time gone by
she was in my life
now I'm watching her
thru' my misty eyes.

Looking back thru' the dreams
I could never let her go
because I miss her so
to get her in my life.

Wondering,if this could b the fate
I just don't understand
God am I too late? -or
Did somebody else take my place?

I've been trying to get to her heart
but everything i've planned
is a sinking sand
got that lonely feeling again.

Forgetting everything in her ocean of love
still haunts my memory
this wasn't what I wanted to be
a man in misery.

Everything falls apart
It doesn’t matter
if it takes a year or two
Someday she'll find the truth.

That,I could never let her go
because I miss her so
the same way that I always do
In spite of all the pain . . .
I love her so...and will always do.

For Friendship's Sake !!!

Siraj was going through what he felt was the worst phase of his life. Nothing seemed right. Nothing seemed exciting or intersting. He had got bored hanging out with his friends at the same places again and again. He had got bored with the monotonous life. Infact he had got bored with life itself.

The mobile was ringing.

"Hello", said Siraj.

"Hey !! Priya here. You coming for the party?" asked Priya.

Siraj was quiet for some time then replied, " Can't make it, have got some other pre planned commitments".

"Hey cmon yaar, everyone's going to be there. It would be great if you could come along too, for friendship's sake!!", Priya said. Siraj was quiet again.

"For friendship's sake!!". These words kept echoing again in his mind. There was a time when these words had such a great value in his life. He was the friend everyone wanted to have. " Tu to 'yaaron ka yaar' he yaar!!, his friends used to keep saying. He was like the thread which held everyone together. But somehow now, those three words had lost its significance.

"Sorry Priya, I really cant make it." he lied ending the conversation.

After cutting the call, he once again went back in time like he so often did.

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It was that time when everything seemed so much in control. He had lots of friends around him. He was the joker in the group. Always full of life. Always in a mood for fun, enjoying life to its fullest. He loved everyone and everyone loved him. That what he felt, then. He was having a time of his life. Friends, friends and more friends. Friendship ruled.

But a four letter word, spoilt it all. LOVE!!

Siraj always believed in the 'love at first sight' theory. He felt that when his so called life partner or soul mate would come in front of him, he would recognise her at once, at that very instant. Something would happen in his heart. Something which would make him say, Yes!! this is the ONE!!

That however hadn't happened when he had first met Priya through a common friend at the college festival. There was nothing about her which appealed to him at the first meeting.It was just a "hi, hello , glad to meet you" thing which happens with strangers until Priya slowly got into their gang and became an integral part of it.

He didnt know how and when it all started. But somehow among all the friends he had, there was one person he felt he needed to be there with him all the time. That one person without whom he felt that the group seemed incomplete. He felt incomplete. That one person without whom he didnt seem to get the same energy to have fun. That one person who made him happy. That one person....was Priya.

The more he talked to her, the more he got to know her better , the more he understood her , the more he fell for her.He seemed to realise that without her, something was always missing. A day never seemed like a day if he had not contacted her. She was special. There was never a moment when he did not think about her. he soon realised that this was love. this had to be love. It was his first and he never felt so happy before ever.

He wanted to have her and be with her for the rest of his life and thats when everything went wrong.

It was a dark and cloudy day as he waited outside her house. She came down to meet him. It was her birthday. He handed the bunch of roses he had bought for her.

" Happy Birthday Priya" , he said.

"Thank you, that's so nice of you.", she said taking the bunch.

" I love you , Priya" he blurted out without giving a second thought.

Minutes later he saw himself walking back to his home. The dark clouds hovering above his head had broken apart and the rains had come. His heart had broken apart and the tears had come. He tried to remember the last time they had come out, but he couldnt.

By the time he reached home he was totally drenched by the rain as well as by his own tears. More by which was hard to say.

Priya's face, that look of shock, those words she had said kept echoing in his head again and again.... 'i never looked at you from that angle , you will always be my good friend, i am sorry, hope you understand, can we still be good friends 'for friendship's sake' ....

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The mobile rang again bringing him into the real world. He cut the call, switched off his cell and threw it away. He held his head tightly and screamed louldy. He felt relived when he did this.

He got up and went to the balcony. That was one place where he felt at ease. That was one place he always went if he had to make any decision. That place was special.

'For friendship's sake' ....he couldnt seem to understand these words. He had changed now. He just didnt seem to be interested in anything. He felt his life had lost its meaning. He felt he had lost the reason for living. So much time, so many days had passed since that dreadful day. Yet he had not recovered.

But he had so much life in front of him. He had so much do to. So many dreams, so many responsibilities. He couldnt throw away his life like this, hiding away from reality.

There were two parts in him.

One which said to become like the SRK in Devdas and waste life for the love that was lost. The other which said be like the SRK in his real life who chased love till he finally got it.

One which said that no matter how hard he tried, Priya wasnt going to accept him. The other which said it was worth giving a try.

One which said, forget it, forget her, forget that she even exists, ignore her, move on find someone else. The other which said dont loose hope, keep in touch, dont loose the friend in her , for friendship's sake.

And because of these two parts inside him, he was always in a dilemma.
He loved her so much, much more that she could possibly imagine. But he just didnt know how to show her or make her understand. He still kept thinking of her all the time. The more he tried to forget her, the more he thought of her in the process. There was not a single day when he had not thought of her. He sometimes felt like calling her, speaking with her as if nothing had happened but couldnt gather the courage to do so. He had to understand that friendship was above love and that he had to be her friend if not her love.

But he had to take a decison soon. He had to remove one part out. He had to become who he was. He had to return to his friends. He had to choose. He had to choose and choose now. He had to choose the latter.

He had to do this for his own sake. He had to do this for friendship's sake.

He ran to get his mobile, switched it on.

"Heyy Priya, I'm coming for the party....for friendship's sake!!"

HERE WITHOUT YOU...

A hundred days have made me older,

since the last time that I saw your pretty face

A thousand lies have made me colder

and I don't think I can look at this the same

But all the miles that separate

They disappear now when I'm dreaming of your face

I'm here without you baby, but you're still on my lonely mind

I think about you baby, and I dream about you all the time

I'm here without you baby, but you're still with me in my dreams

And tonight, there's only you and me (yeah)

The miles just keep rolling,

as the people leave their way to say hello

I've heard this life is overrated,

but I hope that it gets better as we go (ooh yeah yeah)

I'm here without you baby, but you're still on my lonely mind

I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time

I'm here without you baby, but you're still with me in my dreams

And tonight girl, there's only you and me

Everything I know and anywhere I go (yeah)

It gets hard but it won't take away (yeah yeah yeah) my love

And when the last one falls, when it's all said and done

It gets hard but it won't take away my love (ooh ooh ooh)

I'm here without you baby, but you're still on my lonely mind

I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time

I'm here without you baby, but you're still with me in my dreams

And tonight girl, there's only you and me (yeah)(oh yeah, ooooh, oooooooh)

(I'm all alone)

--- 3 DOORS DOWN

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Letter from God.

My Dear Children (and believe me, that’s of all of you),

I consider myself a pretty patient guy, I mean, look at the Grand Canyon. It took millions of years to get it right. And evolution? Boy, nothing is slower than designing that whole Darwinian thing to take place, cell by cell, and gene by gene.

I’ve been patient through your fashions, civilizations, wars and schemes and the countless ways you take Me for granted until you get yourself into big trouble again and again. I want to let you know about some of the things that are starting to tick me off.

First of all, your religious rivalries are driving Me up the wall. Let’s get one thing straight: These are YOUR religions, not Mine. I’m beyond them all. Every one of your religions claims that there is only one of Me (which by the way, is absolutely true). But in the very next breath, each religion claims it’s My favourite one. And each claims its religious book was written personally by Me.

Okay, listen up now. I’m your Father and Mother, and I don’t play favourites among My children. Also, I hate to break it up to you, My longhand is awful, and I’ve always been more of a ‘doer’ anyway.

So all of your books were written by me and women. They were remarkable people, but they also made mistakes here and there. I made sure of that, so that you would never trust a written word more than your own living heart.

You act like I need you and your religions to stick up for Me or ‘win souls’ for My sake. Please don’t do me any favours. I can stand quite well on my own, thank you. I don’t need you to defend Me and I don’t need constant credit. I just want you to be good to each other.

And another thing: I don’t get all worked up with over money or politics, so stop dragging My name into your dramas. The thing is, I want you to stop thinking of religion as some sort of royal pledge to Me. The true purpose of your religion is so that you can become more aware of Me, not the other way around.
Believe Me, I know you already. I know what’s in each of your hearts, and I love you with no strings attached. Lighten up and enjoy Me. That’s what religion is best for. What you seem to forget is how mysterious I am.

You look at petty differences in your Scriptures and say, ‘Well, if this is the truth, then that cant be !’ But instead of trying to figure out My paradoxes and Unfathomable Nature, which by the way, you never will, why not open your hearts to simple common threads in all your religions.

You know what I am talking about: love and respect everyone. Be kind, even when life is scary and confusing, take courage and be of good cheer, for I am always with you. Learn how to be quiet, so that you can hear My still, small voice (I don’t like to shout). Hold back nothing from life, for the parts of you that can die surely will, and the parts that can’t, won’t. So don’t worry be happy (I stole the last line from Bobby McFerrin, but who do you think gave it to him in the first place?)

Simple stuff. Why do you keep making it so complicated? It’s like you are always looking for an excuse to be upset. And I am very tired of being your excuse. Do you think I care what you call Me? Do you think I care which of my special children you feel closest to?

You can call Me and My special ones any name you choose, if only you would go about my business of loving one another as I love you. How can you keep neglecting something so simple? I am not telling you to abandon your religions. Enjoy your religions, honour them, learn from them, just as you should enjoy, honour, and learn from your parents. But do you walk around telling everyone that your parents are better than theirs?

Each religion is unique for a reason. Each has a unique style so that people can find the best path for themselves. If you really want to help them commit yourselves to figuring out how to feed your hungry, clothe your naked, protect your abused and shelter your poor. And just as importantly, make your own everyday life a shining example of good humour.

I’m not really ticked off. I just wanted to grab your attention because I hate to see you suffer. I want you to be happy.

Your One and Only,

God

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--->Neale Donald Walsch

Author of " Conversations With God"

Zara Nazar Uthake Dekho

Hi Guys..

Dont you just wonder that there are some songs which just touch your heart.
Some songs which may be from a superflop movie, some from a movie which no ones heard of, but yet they are there and you just love them for reasons unknown. And ofcourse there may be many of them.

Well here is one such song, which has been my favourite and has u know as they say struck the strings of my heart since the first time i heard it.

Its from a movie "LETS ENJOY" sung by Silk Route. Am sure most of you might never have heard of the movie and also the song.

Lyrics:

Zaara naazar uthake dekho
Baithe hai hum yahi
Bekhabar mujhse kyon ho?
Itne boore bhi hum nahin

Zamane ki baaton mein uljho na
Hai yeh aasaan janana
Khud se jo agar tum poocho
Hai hum tumhare ke nahi

Teri aankhon ka jaadu
Poori duniya pe hai
Duniya ki iss bheed main
Sabse peeche hum kahen

Mehfile aayi aur gayi
Log aaye aur gaye
Tum jo aaj aaye ho
Dil mein ho bas gaye

Muskarake baat taalo na
Phir miloge jo kahi
Dekhana yahi kahoge
Itne boore the hum nahi

Teri aankhon ka jaadu
poori duniya pe hai
Duniya ki is bheed mein
sabse peeche hum khade

Hear it guys...i just love this one.

This one goes out ...straight from the heart...to that one girl out there......made for me.
zara nazar ka dekho.........;-)

http://www.esnips.com/doc/ad96ba21-b1ab-42be-95b6-6e86f8ccdae7/SABSE-PEECHE-HUM-KHADE

Cheers...

Love you all. :-)

Hum to aise he bhaiya......

I and my friends went to see a movie recently, Laga Chunari me daag- the journey of a woman.
Well before you make faces and ask me what!! why that of all the movies!!..Let me make myself clear. Actually I intended to see Bhool bhulaiya (the reviews for which too
weren't very impressive either), but somehow fortunately or unfortunately all the shows were houseful that day. So we ended up seeing this. Time pass jo karna tha.

Anyways let me come to the point of discussion.

There is a song in that movie Hum to Aise he Bhaiya.

Now in that song there are a couple of lines which I felt were very nice when i first heard them.

ek gali me bham bham bole

duji gali me alaah miya

ek gali me gunje azaane

duji gali me bansi bajaiya.

Pretty neat i think.Made me think of all the hindu-muslim ties. The peace and harmony on one side and the riots on the other. Anyways what made these lines even more special is what happened when i reached home that day.

Picturise this.

I get down from an auto (driven by a muslim) and am entering my housing society.Now my housing society just like many other housing society's elsewhere which have a whole mixture of people of various religions.Nothing new.

But what I saw really touched me.

Navaratri had started. And so had EID.There was a mandap set up where the idol of the devi was housed in. And all around the mandap were decorations. Among them was this whole lining of small squared flags, green in color with a moon and a star in center. This lining was like the main part of the decorations for the mandap. There was also another thermocol structure shaped up to be a lil mosque of sorts right next to the first mandap with colorful decorations.

If you think that is communal harmony at its best, wait till you hear more.

There was this guy with a huge red tikka on his forehead wearing a gandhi topi standing on top of a ladder and helping to put up those green flags. There were kids near the mandap, some wearing the skeleton hat, the typical muslim attire and others dressed up for the dandiya looking at the huge idol of the devi with equal excitement. And everyone was playing dandiya. By everyone, I mean EVERYONE. Further ahead, there was a group of eldery people from both the communities watching the little kids enjoying themselves.

It was a really lovely site and those four lines were echoing in my head.

ek gali me bham bham bole

duji gali me alaah miya

ek gali me gunje azaane

duji gali me bansi bajaiya

If all can be so peaceful and harmonious then why did we have those riots where people were like slaughtering each other like hooligans.

Ever wondered that no one cares whether you are a hindu or a muslim when you are playing for your country. Talking about cricket, if Irfan Pathan takes a wicket or Yuvraj hits those sixes,
everyones happy. Everyone loves SRK and Hrithik alike. We have got so many festivals enjoyed and celebrated in full "dhoom dhadaka" by both sides. Then why the fights. Why the hell do we have all those riots, misunderstandings.

Here right before me was an India showing "unity in diversity". It was an India everyone wanted or should i say wants!! It was an India saying "Hum to aise he bhaiya".

Its just because of some God damned hard cored religious fundamentalists from both sects and the politicians that those fights take place. And i really hate such people.Whatever.

Anyways, hats off to the lyricist of those 4 lines. The movie however met my expectations, disappointing. ;-)

Cant think of anything more to write now.Hum to aise he bhaiya.

Cheers. while i hummmmmmm...

ek gali me bham bham bole...

duji gali me ....

THE PROPOSAL

There is something i wanted to say, for a long time now

Just didnt know what to say and didnt know how.

But I have to do it, I have to speak.

The heart is so full, it has to leak.

When i see your eyes the time just stops,

the words take gaurd, the heart beats hops

i know what i am feeling and i know its because of you.

i know what i want, all i want is you.

No matter where i look, no matter where i find.

There wont be anyone like you, you are always on my mind.

You bring joy to my heart, I've never felt before

With each passing day, I love you even more.

I can open my heart and show the love inside,

All i want is you, to be by my side.

You are the angel i was waiting for so long,

Now its only to you that I want to belong.

All i need is you, in my life forever

All i need is you, you are my treasure.

This treasure of love I cherish within my soul,

how much I love you, oh..you are my goal.

In your eyes I see our present, our future and past,

By the way you look at me I know we will last.

I hope that one day you'll come to realize,

How perfect you are when seen through my eyes.

All I ever want is to be part of your heart,

And for us to be together, to never be apart.

No one else in the world can even compare,

You're perfect and so would be the love that we would share.

I love the way you make me happy and the way you show you care,

I love the way you make me smile and way you are always there.

Listen to your heart, just like i am listening to mine.

Ask it the question and then wait for the answer divine.

You will come to know what you want to know.

You will know the path, the love will flow.

We share so much more than I ever thought we would,

I love you more than I ever thought I could.

Give me a chance to love you dear,

Peep in my heart, you are the only one here.

I promise to give you all I have to give,

I'll do anything for you as long as I live.

I will ask you the question every other time.

I wanna be with you, Will you be mine?