Got this as a forward ......touched my heart.... felt this had to be shared.....
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Wake up whenever you like. Finish your morning routine and start cribbing about office. Finally after much deliberation we go to office and waste at least 10 good hours of life. Get paid for it too. Then comes the lovely evenings with friends, nemesis, time to open that bottle “Aaj last time bhai, kal se sab band. Health kharab hoti hai” Suddenly the clock stops moving, time flows by though, Its 2 AM before you know it, Now hungry, time for one more amazing night out. One more cherishable memory to be created with buddies. 5 AM it is now, time for sleep. Good morning again. Then comes weekend and I choose not to tell the world what we guys do on weekends. It’s our secret and I don’t want to be boycotted by guys by telling how our men community spend weekends and create histories.
Hour by hour, day by day, week by week……. We all live like this. Life has no inherent meaning; it’s just a ‘Go with the flow’. Look around. At least 70% people do the exact same things. Why waste thinking the trivialities like being happy, do something for society, do good for self. What is being happy by the way? Anyone?
But kid you not, one day, that one day, that one moment all changes. Life takes a paradigm shift. You meet her. You now know what an angel is. You realize that the blob who is supposed to just pump blood actually feels something. It starts truly beating at that precise moment. You fall in LOVE.
Love by far has no definition. Am sure Shakespeare to Obama, babies to old people have all tried to define Love but failed. Every individual has his own definition however skewed though. Maybe Love has itself never destined to be defined. Maybe it does really have no meaning. Maybe it is not an expression; it is a feel, a stimulus to life.
Comes a day you propose to your angel, you prepare for this day. Entire day you plan, prioritize, make words, buy flowers, behave like a total lunatic. Your final exams seemed like a breeze as compared to this day. Time comes, you meet her and Bang. You propose! The world stops. The only thing you hear is the wind. Then she says it too and you know you have won the world. Nothing matters now.
Life actually starts now, it has a meaning now. Your Love means everything to you now. The calls, the endless talk, the chitter chatter, the goofiness’. Weirdness sets in the moment the phone is kept down. Berserk goes the mind when you drop her at home. Her likes, dislikes, her life is all that matters now. How to keep her happy is the only motto now. One drop of tear and your heart actually stops. One frown on her face and you are on your knees. Your brain stops working, logic is out of window, world does not mean anything to you, all that matters is her. All the time there is this impish grin plastered on your face because all you do is think about her. You actually start enjoying the menial things in life and lest I forget Shopping!! Oh shopping!! Never was it so fun. Ten different shops, 100 different items, incessant trying, walking out with bags and forgetting the item which you had to buy in first place. Ice creams, chocolates, juice all the stuff which had no preference in your life suddenly become necessities. Your mom beat you black and blue to eat right, to pray, to be on time, to be responsible but you never listened. They come to you naturally when you are in Love. Each moment count; they etch themselves in your memory. You are happy. You redefined happiness. Non Lovers say thinking about someone 24*7 is an understatement, ask a Lover I say. Only a Lover can sense everything by just a Hello, just a tone, just a response to a message, just by a breath.
A quote from one of my friend. “Habits not changed timely turns into needs”
Till now you are in Love. The hell sent day when you have the first fight. You reach in a relationship now. Each moment of that dreaded time is filled with agony, despair. But it simmers down within minutes because you simply cannot stay mad. You actually start loving more after the first fight. With all the Love, fights actually complete a relationship. They never mean anything, they hurt a lot, they are forgotten in minutes. You realize that ‘I Am Fine’ is the first red flag and means you have to tread carefully. The world now starts noticing your disappearance but you cannot care a less. People ask, you lie through your teeth. This is one happiness that you cannot share with anyone. You won the world, you are in a relationship, you Love someone, and nothing can top that.
One day it all ends, breakups are never easy. Everybody has their own story. There is a rupture inside you. Your Heart which worked overtime, which was the only thing you used lately, cries. Crying has a new meaning. You don’t want to but you do. You don’t show it, hide your tears, smile with the world, stay happy but no matter how much you try you are not able to cheat yourself. You miss those moments. You miss her. You miss her presence, her talks, her smile, her tears…... Friend never had the answer to “What to do when Habits are changed into needs”. You discover songs actually mean something, start sympathizing with the composer because you are in his shoes now. You are in a sea now, waking up in morning again has no meaning; life again has lost its charm. Perpetual state of pain replaces the happiness. Time is the biggest healer and you will come out of it. Forget about her, stop thinking about her are the condolences that you constantly give to your heart. But they don’t work. Neither does call to your ex because all you play is a blame game which actually means nothing. It worsens the situation even more. You realize that your ‘Ifs’, ‘buts’, ‘maybes’ are the question you have to face alone.
But you do, one day you stop. You come back to the real world. You pick up where you left, Heart has a scar now, and it will be there all your life, but you move on. Logic takes over the internal fight with heart and guides you. The track being a rail track. One track being you and other track being dreams, wishes. They never meet but Life cannot move without both.
Never will I forget,
The beautiful time.
Shared the sunset,
and the sunrise.
I sinked in your eyes,
I ‘was warmed by your smile,
and the world was perfect,
but lasted just for a while.
