Why Do I ?

A gentle breeze, that blows over my face
brings out the memories, of those forgotten days
Try as i might, so hard to ignore
the memories get stronger more, much more.

why do i feel that turmoil in my head
when i recollect all the things we had said
why do i feel that my heart still in pain
i thought it was over, but its started all over again.

why do i think about the promises, a future we had seen
dreams shattered to pieces, leaving me helpless within
why do i still imagine you standing by my side
wanting to reach out to you for help, to being my guide.

why do i still see you in my dreams
i cry out loud, with those ocassional screams
why do i still wish you were here
holding my hands, leaving me without fear.

why do i still imagine that life with you
the life we could have had, just me and you
why do i still want you back, so badly
even after knowing the reality, the fact sadly.



why do i keep counting the pieces of my broken heart
lying scattered on the floor, i kick them apart
why do i keep trying to feel the same love again
when the only feeling thats left inside me, is pain.

why do i keep putting on that fake mask
pretending to be happy, can be quite a task
why do i smile, hiding those tears in my eyes
end up living a life, filled full of lies.

why do i keep trying each day to push you away
failing miserably, i pull you back to stay
why do i keep blaming myself sometimes
trying to find a reason for separation, lost in times.

why do i keep searching for you everywhere
in everything, everyone here and there
why do i keep sinking in the emptiness of the soul
i feel lost, trying desperately to find my goal.

One thing i know, and i know thats for sure
for the pain i have, there is really no cure
The last day my life made any sense, my dear
was the last day i spent with you, when you were near...